The good old days...

Look how fat this kid is. That is me circa 1986, back when I had a neck. I thought I was fat I have had body image problems for my whole life. I really need to do some deep soul searching, my eating/weight problem is really a mental problem. I just recently realized this about me.

I will never be there again but I can be healthy, and that's what I need...Health. Now if i can just get that chubby kid out of the canoe and back in the gym.

Failure is not an option...although it is the norm.

I have created a monster. Me. I have ballooned out of control to 430 lbs. I'm gonna try something new, or at least different.

I went and got the HCG diet drops and today was my first day on the 500 Calorie diet. The food tastes like crap and the portions are to stinking small. I am crabby and being pissy with everyone but as I sit here typing this I know that this may be just the jump start I need.

I need to win one. I am depressed and just being able to put on my uniform without hand to hand combat would be a great thing for me.

SHUT UP HENDRY AND GET YOUR GAME ON YOU FAT SLOB! YOU ARE GOING TO BE BED RIDDEN OR DEAD IN 10 YEARS IF YOU DON'T GET GOING!

Okay with the pep talk over I move on into the black of night...also known as dieting.

Wish me luck!